Taking Control of Life

I am taking control of life.

My Life!

I am starting to let go of the strings that I used to hold tight. The reins of three other people’s lives over which I now have very little control.

And, in many ways, that is good.

Because it sets me free to focus all my attentions on making my own life work.

I spent so much of my time ensuring that they were where they should be with everything that they might need. Anticipating their whims and desires and being able to fulfil them at a moment’s notice because I was already prepared.

Now they have to fend for themselves and they are becoming more independent and more self-aware as a result.

Almost every morning now, I attend a yoga class to work on my physical health and spiritual well-being and I notice how much calmer and more relaxed I am. I don’t go off on one immediately when life throws me a curve ball. I can think it through rationally and try to circumvent it rather than stamping my foot and giving in.

Most evenings, I drift off into half-sleep as Ruf reads to me from Don Miguel de Ruiz’s book on The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom, A Toltec Wisdom Book

He also bought me some little flash cards and I turn one of those over every day to give me something to think about during each day. To improve my positive thinking health and stop me from harking back to the negativity of previous days.

Today’s card reads: ‘What others say and do is a projection of their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering’

I have to stop caring about what other people think. My neighbours, my children, my husband… everyone.

By taking control of life, I am setting myself free.