“I now miss you so much, it’s officially become unbearable”
I knew exactly what Ruf’s text meant.
That emptiness in the chest reaches a point where it is almost a physical pain. One of the problems with long distance relationships.
We are only half way into an enforced five week hiatus. The longest we have been apart in months.
It’s all very well saying that we can have cyber sex or listen to each other masturbate over the telephone and that would have been enough before because we had no choice, there was no other way but secret liaisons slotted into busy schedules.
But it’s no longer sufficient. Not when we’ve had the joy of uninterrupted weeks of togetherness. We have tasted heaven and now we have to go back to purgatory.
Silent, empty and alone.
I could sit here and write reams about how badly I want him. How my heart aches for him and my skin demands him.
Like an addict, shivering from withdrawal, anticipates the next fix, I crave his presence.
But, instead, I must press on, immerse myself in work to try to ignore the ever increasing pangs and numb the gnawing fingers of my desire.
Naturally, I wank. Well, it’s part of my job, of course.
It serves only to take the edge off.
This is an urge with a deep root and, like an iceberg, it is what’s underneath that causes the real problems.
I need recharging and there’s only one hub with the proper connection.
I am running on empty.
I have someone like that.
Far away and we are always needy for eachother. Usually we see eachother every couple weeks, but because of certain things it has been 5 weeks and will be at least 4 more.
It isn’t enough… the texting and phone calls. Not at all.
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Ditto, here. I try to tell myself that “distance makes the heart grow fonder”, that the time we have, though, limited, is precious and better than nothing. And that helps for a few seconds, leaving only the other 23 hours and 58 minutes of the day to deal with …
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I have been in a long distance relationship for a couple of years now and no its not ideal but it is what I signed up for.
We know in time things will change but for now its the best.
Weighing the positives against the negatives is what’s important.
What you have compared to what you don’t.
Technology has given us the opportunity to reach out farther to find love but still hasn’t made any strides in developing fracking teleportations yet.
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Inferno, Ruf and I used to regularly go 8 weeks or so without seeing each other and we coped because we had to. But we’ve got used to seeing each other much more frequently and that’s when it seems even harder to deal with
I hear you, DDD. And distance does make the heart grow fonder but… :(
Hi Walker! I agree, let’s look on the bright side and remind ourselves how much worse it could be if we didn’t have the internet :)
Separations are fucking awful and I feel for you. I have been through them myself and it’s not just a matter of missing the sex, it’s many things, as you know. Masturbation can get you over the top but when it’s being used as a substitute, it’s also lonely in itself.
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Hey MrW, Yup solo wanking cos you miss someone just makes it all the worse.